Everyone will start envying and comparing, then slowly start pouring their woes. Well, I had no choice but stood silently and nodded my head in everything as they spoke.
"How should I spend my long weekend wisely?", I said it in my heart, feeling very trouble. Actually I not looking forward to it. Hmm.. I have no ideas when my life have started become so meaningless and lifeless.
I been thinking "People at my age, shouldn't they be energetic, adventurous, sporty, happening and always crowded with a bunch of friends?"
Unfortunately, I am opposite of all the above. Seriously!!! No kidding!!! I more of a introvert person and don't like to mingle around. I can blame no one but myself.
Mostly after work, I went back home, I always feeling bored and a bit of loneliness in me. I had my own nice room, own comfortable bed, own computer, own radio and even own wardrobe. I had so much of things that I dare not even ask for more. Yet I am not happy at all, always feeling so empty. Sigh. So what is truly happiness?
"So you had everything but actually NOTHING", I remember this sentence when watching The Iron Man movie. I think I getting to understand a bit of the sentence.
Well surprisingly, I can survive until now! Ha ha.. Eh.. It's not something to proud of, I think. Sigh.
I had so much doubt in my life, my future and myself. But I won't give up hope to search for "The Thing" that is missing in my life. Since the day I am born I always been, "Du Lai Du Wang" so not to worry.
When I am down, I will let it go through me and after tomorrow I pull myself back. That's me, do not worry! =)
